You guys, I feel pretty lame right now. I have one complete novel and two WIP’s, but getting words onto the page lately has been darn near impossible. I want to finish the novella and I’m soooo close, but getting the end written is proving to be the hardest thing right now. On top of that, diving into revising my first novel is still something I’m sitting on. I know most of this is just going out into the void, but it helps just saying it. I think I’m too scared. What if I don’t sell my books? What if my covers suck? What if no one wants to join my group or subscribe to my newsletter? Or read my blog? I know all ofwhat I’m going through is normal, but figuring out how to overcome it is my struggle right now. I know a lot of people will say to jump in and just do it scared because eventually it will get easier, but you don’t necessarily ever stop being scared. It’s that whole ‘Fake it till you make it’ mindset that I need to embrace. At least that’s what I think. Do you think that’s true? Have you ever dealt with fear of failure when starting something new? I’ve known deep down for quite a number of years that I wanted to write fiction. I didn’t know what kind, and like many authors, I started out writing fan fiction. It never got much exposure, but it was fun all the same. Then I started playing around with a story idea I had (which I was actually able to find), but it’s yet to be finished. I Have a few incomplete stories/ideas floating around that I’m sure I’ll get to some day if I could just get through this. Ok, I need to stop rambling, lol. I know, it’s not a bad thing. I’m being vulnerable and honest. That’s great, but I don’t want to sound like a broken record. I did get some writing done last week, but trying to work on the final scenes of my novella has me pretty well stumped. Part of me says to work on book two for my series for now, because at least that way I’m still writing and I do need to finish that too. So, it would make sense, right? But, me being me, I’m stubborn and insisting I finish the novella first before I allow myself to look at any other stories. Anyway, that’s it for today’s update. I’d love to see you in my group on Facebook, or join my newsletter. Naturally, there’s more going on in the group than anywhere else. I like to keep it light and fun as much as possible and I’m not afraid to share bits of my messy single mom life, lol.
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Carmen, I think a lot of writers go through self doubt, I certainly do. But think about what you’ve achieved, one book under your belt and two on the way. You should be proud of that. You’ll get through this ?
Thanks Debbie! I struggle with self-doubt in other areas as well. I know I’ve accomplished a lot. Not everyone can say they’ve written a full-length novel. I love having support from others and encouragement when I need it.